05.09.2024 | Ascension of Our Lord

It is a sunny, mild Thursday here in the Carondelet Garden. The weather folks say some clouds will be about this morning, but this afternoon should see all sunshine. A well-deserved break after the rains and storms of the past few days.  A beautiful day to mark the 40th day after Easter and Ascension Day.

It has been a challenging few weeks for Dr. B and this old gardener to say the very least.  I have been asking God often recently, "What do you want from me?"  Sometimes I ask thoughtfully, sometimes in sheer frustration.  Yet, the answer always seems to be stop, rest, abide in me and I will provide what you need.  Trust in me.  Trust.  Easy to say, hard to do.  Why do I resist contemplation?  Why do I find this journey so difficult?  What exactly to I believe right now?  And what can I do to bring my spirit back to balance?  

Struggles are constant in this life but then again, so is beauty and love.  I believe we seek God, not necessarily in one church or one denomination but in our own way.  I believe we are looking for the simple wholeness that dwells deep within us yet so often overlooked until that well runs dry.  Although the Garden may be saturated my soul thirsts right now.  I'm tired, anxious, and worried while struggling to hold on to faith and hope.  Time will tell and time will heal.  For now, we wait and pray.

The good news is the sun is shining.  The birds are singing.  The music coming from the SmartSpeaker is beautiful.  Coffee is brewing and a warm puppy is sleeping at my feet.  Hope.  Faith.  Love.  That's all the news from here in the Carondelet Garden.